Forget Me Nots....

Originally written Sept 24, 2011

    A week of fervent prayer, scriptures, conversations with a few people, a morning at the temple and an amazing General Relief Society  Meeting ..

I feel I have been having some of those big life experiences I am sure we were all warned about before coming to experience this thing called "mortality."  In reality, what we are experiencing now is just more of what we have been dealing with for almost two decades now.  It hasn't been easy for us.    

But, here we are bumping up against a  new trial.. And some of  the experiences we've been having as a Knudsen family for the past while have caused me to wonder sometimes if I have been forgotten.  I have had a few really hard days.  


And, I know some of you do too....... 

Have you ever wondered what the point is of having hopes, plans and righteous desires?  I have questioned this before.  Sometimes I have felt that we have been shut out and left behind, on the outside of the blessings of the Gospel that I have always put my trust in.  I have questioned many things.   

This past week again..... as so many times before... after fervent prayer,  things began to happen, I did things, thoughts came to my mind, I read something here , was blessed with inspiration there...all coming together and culminating in a new and wonderful understanding as I listened to the messages in this meeting tonight.  

My questions have been answered, I have a new understanding, sadness and despair is gone, hope is restored, even deeper trust is back.   Its another small miracle.   

And I know Heavenly Father blessed me with all this.... and I know he is there...and I will trust him.  

I will.trust.him. 

 I know I am not alone in my trials.  We all have had or will experience some things that will try us to our core.  But, it is good to know that through the safety and security of keeping our covenants we can rest in the Lord as we work through our trials day by day, knowing that in the end our righteous desires, our plans and dreams are known by our loving Heavenly Father and in his time and according to His will he will bless us and none of us will go without or be shut out and left behind in anyway.  

Our Heavenly Father loves us.  We are continually before him.  It is not hard to understand how this can be possible in this age of Facebook, smart phones and i pads.  We are continually before him and he is aware of us and loves us...He knows our hearts..our sincere efforts and our intentions.  He knows how hard we try.  He loves us for never giving up.  He is pleased when we help each other on our way.  

I love what Elder Uchdorf said, "we shouldn't stop hoping for all the righteous desires of our hearts, keep working at it and trying, BUT don't close your eyes and hearts to the beauty of every day ordinary moments and of all the ways Heavenly Father is blessing you."   

So remember to keep looking for the golden ticket but don't forget the simple joy of eating that candy bar.  

I am grateful to be on this journey with each of you.  I am grateful for the many ways that you strengthen and help me...and I am grateful for your examples.  

Love you all, 

.........and now I need to plan where I am going to plant Forget Me Not Flowers in the yard.